Star: That was a beautiful post, and I totally understand how much you are hurting right now. I hope that it brings you some comfort to know that you have helped many, many other parents on this board with your wisdom and beautiful writing. I don't feel like celebrating any holiday right now, because my difficult child is in jail and it makes me so sad to think about him. No mother should be hurting and in pain because of our children, none of us deserve this pain. I will be thinking of you on Easter and I am sending you good wishes for a day filled with hope. HUGS...