Thank you all!! We kind of did have a mini intervention last night. She called me from another hospital and asked if I would come keep her company as she had no one. Of course, I took the opportunity as a last ditch effort to talk some sense into her. So I went there and they did not admit her. She needs to see a surgeon to have some of it removed. I will be making those calls this morning. I am not leaving this one up to her to do herself. No way. Not messing with this.
She cut off all her hair! It looks really cute - a bob where it is shorter in the back and longer on the sides. She did it herself. I told her I will take her somewhere to have the back straightened up but she did a pretty good job and she looks adorable. So, we got her medications filled and went to dinner and talked. She looked better than I thought she would. I was really scared of what she would look like, so I didn't bring easy child with me. Everything we talked about somehow revolved back to A hole. She is so hung up on this guy. Everything she does is in hopes that she will get him back. Ugh. But, she did tell me that she would go to my friend's.
So, we went to my friend's house and the three of us sat in a circle and chatted. difficult child showed me some drawings and poems she has done. She is so amazingly talented. She seemed to thrive in the compliments and my goodness it was so good to see her smile. Then we got to business.
She showed us her medical papers that the hospital gave her and in her discharge papers was a section saying tests showed that she has a substance abuse problem! We showed her and she waived it off saying everyone gets that. We told her absolutely not! That neither one of us had ever had that on one of our discharge papers?! She opened up and told me what she has been doing (shooting up) and the biggest step of all?? She finally admitted she was a drug addict. Never, ever has she admitted that before - not in front of me anyway. It is the first step. But, she thinks as long as she can hold a job and blah, blah everything in moderation BS. You all know the talk. We gave her a big reality dose and showed her how she does not have it together. Not in the least. She has lost
everything in her life because of drugs. There were tears in her eyes and I swear something clicked up there. Maybe a tiny, teeny little click. But a click nonetheless.
I was tired and heading home and she was worried about me driving because I was tired. It was 11pm and I am usually asleep by then. She told me to text or call her when I got home so she knows I made it home safe. So, I sent her one when I got home saying it was good to see her and how much I loved her. She wrote back that she loved me too and it was great spending time with me. She said thank you for
everything. I told her I would go to the moon and back for her and she says, I am gonna try for you momma. I bursted into tears. I am still teary. I told her to do it for
her. That she deserved so much more out of life and that I would support her 100% as long as she was
trying. She has been completely out of my life and I miss her like crazy, as weird as that is...lol. I NEED to find that line of being in her life, but not enabling her. That is a very hard line to find but I am going to try. It was so good just to see her and she was actually being nice and pleasant for a change and that made the night that much more enjoyable. Maybe geting kicked out of a hospital showed her how badly she behaves?
Do I think this is it? Sadly, no. I know that she has to get to a point where she wants to do it for herself. She still absolutely refuses rehab and claims she can do this on her own. So, no, I don't think this is bottom. But, it is a step...and every little step helps...
Now my mission is to find a surgeon so she can get back on the mend. Thank you all so much for being here during this crisis. I honestly don't know what I would do with out this board!!!
