Last year on the eve of my fathers funeral which my son arrived for in a different state, my son was extremely upset. We first thought he was upset because he did not get to see his grandfather alive, he wouldn't speak he just wept. He said the pain was to much and he could not speak, I suggested that he write his feelings down, which he did. He went on to say how he always felt things deeper than other people since he was a child, and that nothing could help him. As you can imagine at 2 am the night before my fathers funeral this was almost another impossible blow to bear. My daughter and I tried to talk to him about this and how we all felt this way at one point or another in our lives and that you can get help. He said no that would not work for him. I later that week came to find out his girlfriend had broken up with him and that seemed to be fueling this mood. We again spoke to him about how difficult this is an that we all have been there and that it would get better to no avail.
It has been over a year and he has gotten progressively worst. He has is own apartment, when he comes over he hardly speaks, he will text and says its to painful to speak in person. He will text me usually in the evening how he cannot take the pain for much longer, sometimes in the middle of the night, his sister will text him and he won't answer. I have suggested therapy he says no they can't help him he is to far gone and there is no hope for him. He won't participate in any family events. He says that we should go on with our lives and forget about him because he feels nothing. He does not do drugs as he got a new job recently and had to pass rigorous drug testing. He has never been in any type of trouble. He was always a quiet child but funny and happy, when he reached the teen years he got quieter and moody but you hear that is normal. He says that all he needs to help him is one last conversation with the ex girlfriend because she never gave an explanation for the break up and he needs to say his peace.
Since she has moved on and has another boyfriend she will not speak to him, so he says he will never be able to trust and move on without that conversation.
Today was the first night I found this site, and I read people voicing the same fears, and frustrations which has help me feel I am not alone.
I have not had a moment without worry since that night a year ago.
It has been a very difficult year since loosing my father, my mother at 89 has come to live with me,
my husband lost his job. Of all the things good and bad that have happened , this is the one that is consuming me. I work a full time job, that helps a little when I'm busy. I don't sleep well, I can't enjoy my other child or my grandchild because, he is always on my mind. If I text him and he doesn't answer right away I feel a sense of panic that he might have harmed himself.
It has been over a year and he has gotten progressively worst. He has is own apartment, when he comes over he hardly speaks, he will text and says its to painful to speak in person. He will text me usually in the evening how he cannot take the pain for much longer, sometimes in the middle of the night, his sister will text him and he won't answer. I have suggested therapy he says no they can't help him he is to far gone and there is no hope for him. He won't participate in any family events. He says that we should go on with our lives and forget about him because he feels nothing. He does not do drugs as he got a new job recently and had to pass rigorous drug testing. He has never been in any type of trouble. He was always a quiet child but funny and happy, when he reached the teen years he got quieter and moody but you hear that is normal. He says that all he needs to help him is one last conversation with the ex girlfriend because she never gave an explanation for the break up and he needs to say his peace.
Since she has moved on and has another boyfriend she will not speak to him, so he says he will never be able to trust and move on without that conversation.
Today was the first night I found this site, and I read people voicing the same fears, and frustrations which has help me feel I am not alone.
I have not had a moment without worry since that night a year ago.
It has been a very difficult year since loosing my father, my mother at 89 has come to live with me,
my husband lost his job. Of all the things good and bad that have happened , this is the one that is consuming me. I work a full time job, that helps a little when I'm busy. I don't sleep well, I can't enjoy my other child or my grandchild because, he is always on my mind. If I text him and he doesn't answer right away I feel a sense of panic that he might have harmed himself.
