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toughlovin
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I am really beginning to hate hate hate this cycle we are in. I can get to sleep ok, but when I wake up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom I am having a hard time going back to sleep. I get what Nancy says when she says that death brings closure.... I don't want that at all but the living on the streets is awful too. I had the stark realization yesterday that on his current path there is a very good chance my son will die before I do. I mean I have realized that before but yesterday I realized the probabilties are not in his favor.
I hate knowing he is now hooked on opiates... We all know that if he isn't doing it already that he is headed into using heroin..... and that just feels unbelievable to me in a way. When I was young many of us experiemented with drugs, but definitely not heroin. It was somehow off limits.
I know there is nothing I can do but go on with my life and wait for him to hopefully want help. But it is hard to remember that in the middle of the night when all I want is peaceful sleep.
TL
I hate knowing he is now hooked on opiates... We all know that if he isn't doing it already that he is headed into using heroin..... and that just feels unbelievable to me in a way. When I was young many of us experiemented with drugs, but definitely not heroin. It was somehow off limits.
I know there is nothing I can do but go on with my life and wait for him to hopefully want help. But it is hard to remember that in the middle of the night when all I want is peaceful sleep.
TL