I'm so sorry. Taking it out on the puppy is abhorrent and a giant red flag. It can't be allowed to happen again.
You need respite. Right now, you'll have to take it in any little , tiny way you can. While she is hospitalized, pick yourself up a nice meal. Talk on the phone with an understanding friend for 15 minutes. ANYTHING.
But, there seems to be more and more reason for her to be placed in residential tx.
I was very lucky to have one or two friends that helped me out now and then. I did my best to not overburden them...which would of been very easy to do actually because this stuff is often WAY over the top. But, I would call one now and then and tell her I simply needed one hour to myself and drop off my daughter. Daughter was often better with her anyway. I knew better to push my luck with two hours. If you have a person like this in your life...that would be great. But, ironically, hospitalization can also provide respite for you as well. I'm so sorry...this sounds (and is) extraordinarily difficult.
You need respite. Right now, you'll have to take it in any little , tiny way you can. While she is hospitalized, pick yourself up a nice meal. Talk on the phone with an understanding friend for 15 minutes. ANYTHING.
But, there seems to be more and more reason for her to be placed in residential tx.
I was very lucky to have one or two friends that helped me out now and then. I did my best to not overburden them...which would of been very easy to do actually because this stuff is often WAY over the top. But, I would call one now and then and tell her I simply needed one hour to myself and drop off my daughter. Daughter was often better with her anyway. I knew better to push my luck with two hours. If you have a person like this in your life...that would be great. But, ironically, hospitalization can also provide respite for you as well. I'm so sorry...this sounds (and is) extraordinarily difficult.