GStorm
Becoming Independent
I feel like I am going nuts. I have been to my therapist, primary care provider, and a substitute pastor, telling them all about how hopeless I feel. I pray about this issue with my son and let God know how hurt I am. Once I talk, I am okay for awhile and then it bothers me again and I feel sad that: my son has moved away, that I have been left holding the bag, and he has hurt me so badly & really does not seem to have a clue. It is now 4 a.m. I am getting up at 6 a.m. to go to my job as a counselor
How ironic, huh? I am so hurt, angry, and depressed. I had thoughts of not wanting to live, but that is not the answer. I just need to keep giving it to God and not taking it back.
The church service on Sunday talked about what we are going to do in the new year. It (the video) suggested GIVING UP....wanting to control, wanting it my way, and enabling. I just feel dumb that I went up to thus substitute pastor and blurted out my story. I am sure I overwhelmed him, because he referred me on to a counselor, prayed with me about R.J. but I just got the sense that he wanted to run away from me. I feel bad about that. I feel stupid and lonely. I think Satan is telling me to just keep rhis all inside,no one really wants to help, you made your bed by enabling it, so now you have to lie in it.
God, help me. Any support is appreciated. I feel a tear going down my cheek.
Gail
How ironic, huh? I am so hurt, angry, and depressed. I had thoughts of not wanting to live, but that is not the answer. I just need to keep giving it to God and not taking it back.
The church service on Sunday talked about what we are going to do in the new year. It (the video) suggested GIVING UP....wanting to control, wanting it my way, and enabling. I just feel dumb that I went up to thus substitute pastor and blurted out my story. I am sure I overwhelmed him, because he referred me on to a counselor, prayed with me about R.J. but I just got the sense that he wanted to run away from me. I feel bad about that. I feel stupid and lonely. I think Satan is telling me to just keep rhis all inside,no one really wants to help, you made your bed by enabling it, so now you have to lie in it.
God, help me. Any support is appreciated. I feel a tear going down my cheek.
Gail