*sigh*
I don't know where to begin or what I'll even remember after these past several days. I don't even know what day it is. He was here with me for 3 days. I yelled at him the whole time. Not loud, just *matter of factly*. There was a fight between his father and I because I didn't kick him out. When dad came home; he told him "tell me where you want a ride to" - "get out" - "I'm done"
The boy tried to ask to stay, he went blank. It was our first tough love. We wanted to take him to a shelter but he chose to go to the middle of a small town and get dropped off in the middle of nowhere.
I gave him a very expensive brand new sub zero jacket.
Nothing was heard until my other son kept calling me and it turned into phone tag.
My son used a friends sofa until the *friend asked him to leave. He begged his brother to help him of which the brother did. My son told me he didn't have a jacket at all ! ! omg - hocked /pawned/traded an expensive jacket already?
Good son put him up in a hotel.
Time was up and homeless son called successful son in a panic and terror and son put him up in a hotel for another week.
This homeless son had a whole year to get an ID of which he has made dozens of excuses as to why he hasn't got it.
He can NOT be alone and he can NOT think for himself.
It is super sad.
My successful son is currently guiding him and ordering him to do this and do that and take baby steps and he is already exhausted and finally understands what dad and I have been through for 20 years.
It is like talking to a 5 year old.
My heart is so broken over the fact that he is mental and shouldn't we take care of the mentally ill?
Again, he didn't steal a darn thing from me while he was here other than the missing coat after we kicked him out.
I'm on a loop, a loop, a loop, a loop of anguish/pain/worry/heartache. My heart hurts, I literally feel it hurting. I hope I don't have a heart attack. They run in the family and I've already had a stroke. (with zero residual effects)
He can't function, he is a non functioning human. dang it ! why why why -
Thank you all for your kind hearts and comments. It seems when I come here it is the only relief I feel when I read replies or type my heart out.
Warm regards -
beebz