Jerri
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Hello old freind...
So sorry that I have waited for this sad day to touch base with you. I really am.
I pray you are content and that your babies remain under the loving protection of the Guaurdian of us all.
Vicki.. she is so perfect.. her fine chisled features the making's of a Miss America!
She had so much sandy reddish blonde hair, I wanted a comb, and a half yard of small ribbon to entwine it in.
I am just learning of the choices and the deepest wisdom my children were given, at their moment of deepest sadness.
They had a choice to make almost immediatley.. would there be an autopsy or not.. if the answer was yes she would be taken from the room, and the appropraite methods, and tests would be completed. If not she would remain with them.
They then had to decide... mind you babes themselves in a room filled with sadness and the horror of their lifeless Princess in front of them, if she should have an open or closed casket at her funeral.
On both counts they put their child first.. we did not know that they were being asked to decide this as we waited in a silent tear filled room.. to hear news or be allowed in to see our children.
They said, we need not know the reason why, for we have only one thought, and that it is... she is gone, and knowing why will never matter as much as what we have in front of us.
* she died from a placenta abruption, and the Dr.'s have told us that there was no way to know or do anything to intervene. Jenny felt her kicking late into the afternoon, and then she went into labor... and when she arrived at the hospital, they failed to find a heartbeat... that was that...
They also opted for a closed casket funeral because it meant she would never be taken from them, or out of the room in which she was born, until they themselves were discharged, and they would say their final goodbyes.
At each step they demonstrated such dignity and courage, I will never look at them with the same eyes or heart.
I have myself lost a child before it had time to live.. and I cannot help but think of how much easier it would have been to reconcile, if I had been allowed a chance to grieve and love my own baby girl.
That day and a half will forever be priceless to them and to those who came by and gladly accepted the baby to hold and love.
I am greatful, that as a society we have learned from our past err's.
I should get some sleep.. everyone scolds me so for not doing so, and I have worried my Tommy so much, he will not sleep until he is certain I am as well.
Its so good to pour my heart to you tonite Vicki... so very good.
God Bless you my friend...
Hugs N Love!!!
Jerri
So sorry that I have waited for this sad day to touch base with you. I really am.
I pray you are content and that your babies remain under the loving protection of the Guaurdian of us all.
Vicki.. she is so perfect.. her fine chisled features the making's of a Miss America!
She had so much sandy reddish blonde hair, I wanted a comb, and a half yard of small ribbon to entwine it in.
I am just learning of the choices and the deepest wisdom my children were given, at their moment of deepest sadness.
They had a choice to make almost immediatley.. would there be an autopsy or not.. if the answer was yes she would be taken from the room, and the appropraite methods, and tests would be completed. If not she would remain with them.
They then had to decide... mind you babes themselves in a room filled with sadness and the horror of their lifeless Princess in front of them, if she should have an open or closed casket at her funeral.
On both counts they put their child first.. we did not know that they were being asked to decide this as we waited in a silent tear filled room.. to hear news or be allowed in to see our children.
They said, we need not know the reason why, for we have only one thought, and that it is... she is gone, and knowing why will never matter as much as what we have in front of us.
* she died from a placenta abruption, and the Dr.'s have told us that there was no way to know or do anything to intervene. Jenny felt her kicking late into the afternoon, and then she went into labor... and when she arrived at the hospital, they failed to find a heartbeat... that was that...
They also opted for a closed casket funeral because it meant she would never be taken from them, or out of the room in which she was born, until they themselves were discharged, and they would say their final goodbyes.
At each step they demonstrated such dignity and courage, I will never look at them with the same eyes or heart.
I have myself lost a child before it had time to live.. and I cannot help but think of how much easier it would have been to reconcile, if I had been allowed a chance to grieve and love my own baby girl.
That day and a half will forever be priceless to them and to those who came by and gladly accepted the baby to hold and love.
I am greatful, that as a society we have learned from our past err's.
I should get some sleep.. everyone scolds me so for not doing so, and I have worried my Tommy so much, he will not sleep until he is certain I am as well.
Its so good to pour my heart to you tonite Vicki... so very good.
God Bless you my friend...
Hugs N Love!!!
Jerri
