I cannot honestly say what I am feeling. l think I am basically just numb. Anger is easier than grief but I simply don't have the energy for anger. Anger and grief would both put me under right now. Most days it feels like I am somewhat emotionally removed from the entire situation, almost like reporting the news. I am sure that is simply a coping mechanism but one I have never experienced before. My greatest anxiety at this point is believing that if I have to see her for any reason I will break apart and not be able to put the pieces back together.