Last week even though this sh#t storm is still swirling I was able to stay focused on work for the most part so that is a small victory
That is quite an accomplishment with all that is going on EM. I am sorry that you are surrounded with this from all sides. It must be very hard to keep your head on straight. I am amazed at your resilience and fortitude.
My mother’s involvement in this whole mess is what gets me sucked in again and again but I am also making my peace with the fact that my love for her can’t save her. She is making a decision to hitch herself to his wagon and try to right all his wrongs and take care of his kids.
I can see where this would make it all the more difficult. I mean really, Mom? How hard it must be to witness, but what on earth can one do? We can't save
anyone from the choices they make, and I don't think we are obliged to go down the proverbial sewer with those choices, because of family ties. It still doesn't make it any easier to detach from it all. EM, you have tried as best you can to offer reasonable solutions. I am so sorry for the pain and frustration you must be feeling. There is only so much any one of us can do. While my siblings and mother are well, I have two daughters on the crazy train, and three grands affected. I am not able to take them in and raise them. I have enough on my plate. This makes for raised eyebrows and rolling eyes in my neck of the woods, but it is what it is. I had to make a decision after hubs passed, to focus on raising our teenaged son, he has grown up with his sisters in and out of our home and the resulting chaos and drama that caused. It is not an easy road to be on, to put ones foot down. Necessary for survival. Ouch, just ouch. I am sorry EM.
Anybody can see it isn’t working except her. Who ever thinks their mother is going to be homeless?
That's so tough. But, Mom is of sound mind, and making her own choices. You can't have this craziness in your home. You have a 13 year old to care and provide a safe environment for.
I am attending 3 meetings a week in person and a couple online and reading a lot of the literature and am finally ready to believe that I can live a better happy life even if none of the people in my life ever change.
That is where I am at, most times, trying as best I can to live a better happy life, even though my two are out there. It takes work, which you are doing. Good for you EM, keep building your toolbox. You matter.You matter!
Drug addiction is such a life sucking thing, to the addict and their loved ones. Don't allow your brother to mess with you and try to make you feel guilty. His choices lead to these consequences. It is the same for my two. It is hard to watch unfold. For the most part, they have gone no contact. It is because they know I will not give in to them.
We walk a tough path with this. I am glad you are working hard at finding your peace.
I enjoy pottery making as well. It is a time to think of something pleasant, creating and working with my hands. It is good to find things to keep busy with, something that brings joy.
You are strong, EM. Keep moving forward and taking care of you.
Please know that you are not alone.
(((HUGS)))
Leafy