hi,
i went back a ways wanted to find this thread reread it see what i thought. that's interesting to do after you've shared yourself to go back days later.
i decided to stay with kids bc he was going to do counseling with me, yet it's not easy.......most of our conversations circle around midnite when he gets home from work, and at that point i'm done mentally so i don't have much left. sort of like me in the a.m. im tired and nasty and short tempered.
so he's been trying and we've been talking alot but we run into bumps he's protective of his feeligns and i of mine. we both have walls up we've been told. he's afraid i'm going to hurt him the same way that his ex did after their 18 year marriage. me i'm just plain afraid of committment i think or have been told. things have been calmer past week or so and yes i can see difference in kids.
it's odd tosay but sometimes i'll ask him how did you guys do it for 18 years that's a long time? we're a year and struggling. so many issues between kids my little one, etc. we're still building foundation or were until he started yelling and we began arguing. it's hard for us to handle all of this wtihout the proper foundation in place. really hard. so we're forming some bad habits.
anyway just wanted to find this and update you guys on it. i haven't really brought it up since then. he'll support us financially while i go for next round of testing that i'm gong to need is his support.
Jen
