BusynMember1
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That was brilliant, 200 meters.
I agree!
I agree!
Copabanana said:I think a large part of my despair is that in relation to my son I become somebody I don't recognize. Rather than calling upon the best I can be, my interactions with my son become degraded. I become defined by anger, by fear, by cynicism, by a kind of shame, by reactivity, by despair and blame, and by hopelessness. And I can't seem to get myself out of this, in relation to him. I am at the point where I can't tolerate any contact at all because I lose myself.
Thank you for the opportunity to get in touch with these feelings here on this thread. I feel tiny tears welling up. And I feel the pain behind the words. If I can feel the pain, the toxicity will drain, and I will be back to myself.
200meters, I don't know what to do. I am lost. When I feel this way I want to die. When I begin to feel this way and I write this here, I scare people. But I don't know what else to do.
You give and give to your boy. I don't have anything left.
Crayola13 said:Kosher and vegan both? In my ignorance, I thought the Old Testament more or less required eggs, cheese, milk, and any type of meat except pork.
Crayola13 said:I really hope your son learns from this and gets all straightened out.
Crayola13 said:Please be good to yourself and take care of yourself.
Deni D said:200 Meters, your posts are so thought provoking.
Deni D said:Your width, depth and sense of humor amaze me.
Deni D said:And that Dormouse, I've spoken with him often...
Deni D said:I don't want to provoke another "ouch" from you but about the money thing...
Deni D said:Your youngest is a real challenge, huge understatement...
Deni D said:...but from your posts if anyone has the right disposition to evolve and see this situation through it's you.
Deni D said:I think you are grounded no matter what comes your way.
Deni D said:Wishing you the best.
Send me a private message & let's see if we can meet to eat though not for meat (that will be a feat that can't be beat). Seriously!
RN0441 said:These experiences truly change us forever.
RN0441 said:I think that you have a great way of looking at it all and your humor is priceless.
)200Meters said:I resent Youngest (and Oldest, he is not innocent here) for making me into something I am not, for forcing me to be something I hate. I am, by nature, trusting and I tend to be gullible. I want to believe people, especially our sons. Our sons! But I have had to go against my nature and become suspicious, skeptical and mistrustful. I cannot tell you how much I hate that, but I have no choice.
Beta said:Ah yes...the wheels of justice. It's a wonder anything ever gets resolved. Everything is SLOWWWWW.
RNO441 said:So glad you are able to get off work to come back when they screw up!
Crayola13 said:When it comes to cigarettes, I would have said hell no.
Crayola13 said:Just out of curiosity, what is the culture regarding cigarettes like in Israel? We don't like them here.
This brought tears. While I would not have wanted you or anyone to suffer this, I feel grateful to not be here in this place alone."Don't you want somebody to love?" are:
"When the truth is found to be lies
And all the joy within you dies"
I am like this too.I am, by nature, trusting and I tend to be gullible. I want to believe people, especially our sons. Our sons!
Copabanana said:This brought tears.
Copabanana said:I feel grateful to not be here in this place alone.
Copabanana said:I am always happy when you post 200Meters
And this:our PD did not have to self-quarantine
And this:She will also be the presiding judge over the impending corruption trial of Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu.
Oy vey.in his orange jumpsuit, and leg-irons
Yes.What a soap opera!