Hi and Welcome!! You are TOTALLY in the place where you belong!!! We have truly been there done that for a lot of the things you are experiencing. We KNOW that it was not your parenting that caused this, and we know that you love her deeply even when you cannot stand the sight or sound or thought of her. We won't blow sunshine up your nose, or tell you that you are the cause of everything that is wrong with her. We won't stand in judgment and we won't throw stones. We know that false sunshine always makes things darker, that there is no possible way that a parent is the cause of a child's every problems unless there is the type of severe neglect/abuse that is just unspeakable (and parents who seek us out and wonder if they are bad parents just don't do those things!), we know judgment doesn't help and those stones hurt!
This truly is a safe place for parents. We don't use first names, last names, or identifying info. We don't list places our kids get treatment and we don't use photos for avatars, at least not photos of our family members. We respect each other and ourselves, and we offer help and info and ideas with the full understanding that you will take what works for your family and leave the rest. None of us expect you to do everything we suggest because only you know what will be worth trying and what won't be.
One thing that can help us keep everyone's info straight is to make a signature like the ones at the bottom of my post. Just basic info, a nickname or just difficult child 1, easy child 1, gender, age, any diagnosis or medications, anything hobbies/passions, just a few things to help us remember. In my signature you will also see a link. It is to what I think is one of the most powerful tools a Warrior Mom can have - a Parent Report. This is a report that you create that tells ALL about your difficult child. The problems, the history, the docs and medications and schools and also the great stuff - the passions and hobbies and sense of humor and everything good about difficult child also. It is all in one place so that when you speak to school or a doctor or an expert in some field, you have your records and results and info right there. You can give copies of any section that is relevant to the doctor to keep in his file and then they can't say they don't have the info. It also can show a doctor or case worker that you have truly tried all ten of the things they want to suggest and here are the results and the official summary of treatment by Dr.YZ so what next? Sometimes this means they will move to something more or different, which can be a good thing.
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From the things you say, your child has sensory problems. Severe ones. The whole seam/tag thing? Isn't just her being picky. things that don't bug other people really DO cause HUGE problems for her. She has NO CHOICE but to have these things dominate her life. How do I know? I am SOOOO very much that way. I also have children and parents with sensory problems.
I have always referred to myself as a 'texture person'. I cannot wear or even touch certain types of cloth. These new microfiber cleaning cloths are the devil's creations. I would rather listen to an hour of nails on a chalkboard than to touch one of those cloths for three seconds. It bothers me, jangles my nerves, takes over my brain that much. I am about the pickiest eater I know. Even my kids are not as picky as I am. Some flavors and smells cause problems, but even more it is the texture of the foods. I like rice, but if overcooked or cooked in a crockpot? it gags me. I LOVE oatmeal, but only if it is as thick as library paste. I abhor mushrooms of ALL types. Raw they have styrofoam texture, cooked they are slimy. The problems go on and on. YOu CANNOT sneak food past me, not ground up, not disguised in sauce, nothing.
I also cannot stand to itch. I cannot THINK. I once flunked a test because the teacher insisted we all wear sweaters and I ddn't have one (he wanted a window open and thought we had Occupational Therapist (OT) have sweaters on, NO clue why). He made me wear his wool sweater and it itched even through my school uniform shirt. I had NEVER flunked a test before, but I honestly could NOT do the math problems. I was a math whiz and this was a basic review. I was hysterical from the itching and knowing I was flunking. Eventually I ended up in the bathroom throwing up from the tears and choking them back.
I am STILL that bad or worse with a lot of things. I think your daughter's anger may be directly related to the sensory issues, at least a substantial part of it probably is. Imagine all the things you want to do , the pretty clothes you want to wear. Then imagine knowing that if you wear them you won't be able to function, to think, to be YOU. Imagine having no CLUE why evryone else is doing things and is happy and smiling and wearing those cute clothes and the tushie floss thongs as you change for gym class and then the girls notice that your undies are inside out. Then they attack like a bunch of laughing hyenas. They call you names, tease you, bully you, make you feel like a stupid freak because you cannot even tellt hem why you put your undies on inside out. Why you cannot wear the cute undies they do. THen imagine you just don't wear underwear at all. The girls see that and it gets worse - a billion times worse. They not only call you a prostitute, they go and tell EVERYONE that you don't wear underwear. They even talk about proving it to the school by pulling your pants down (or worse they actually DO that!). So how do you feel even THINKING your daughter maybe went through all that? How would you have felt at her age to have felt like that, gone through all of that, and had NO ONE understand?
This is a small glimpse of the problems she may be having. She needs a complete Occupational Therapist (OT) evaluation and there ARE things that can help. One therapy is called brushing and it is combined with gentle joint compressions. It is, in my opinion, incredible. It has been proven to change how the brain processes sensory information - in other words it rewires the brain!!! The COOLEST thing is that it uses NO medications to do this. So there are no pharmacy bills, no side effects, no wondering if it will kick in soon, none of that. It isn't used as often on older kids, or so our Occupational Therapist (OT) told us, but I did it on myself and on my older kids and saw some real benefits. I think our Occupational Therapist (OT) just didn't have older people (over about 9 or so) in her practice. The brushing is done with a very soft surgical scrub brush on either bare skin or over clothing. It is easy and simple and once you have the hang of it, quite fast. But it MUST be taught to you by a qualified Occupational Therapist (OT) because doing it improperly or on the wrong parts of the body can cause real physical problems.
You need to find an Occupational Therapist (OT) to do a complete evaluation for sensory problems. A children's or university hospital might be a good place to find one. I used the yellow pages to find ours. The Occupational Therapist (OT) will help you and difficult child learn to make these things more livable.
I strongly recommend you read "The Out of Sync Child" by Kranowitz. It will explain a LOt about sensory integration disorder and how it can be helped. She also has a book called The out of Sync Child Has Fun" that is packed with fun things to do to provide the sensory input that difficult child wll also need. We have loved the book, but many things may be aimed at younger children than your daughter. I suggest reading it after the first book and then working to make the activities provide the sensory input she needs in ways that will appeal to her. One of our readers has a daughter who needs deep pressure. In addition to weighted blankets, etc... the young lady also wears, and loves, corsets. It is a creative way to solve her need for deep pressure. That is just an example of how this young lady found a solution that works for her as an adult.
Given her father's problems, she may have other problems also. Can you tell us who has evaluated her and what they have diagnosis'd adn prescrbed for her? How that worked?
Anyway, I have written a book for you. Welcome to our forum!