Hitchhiker42
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Um. Hi. Er.
I'm not really sure where to go and I was googling ODD and ADHD and came across this so uh. hi.
I've been diagnosed with ADHD and Dysgraphia since 6th grade. My little brother has it, as does my dad. I'm 17 years old, and I'm a senior in high school.
Recently, I've been researching college options and whatnot and difficulties I might have with ADHD in college and I came across ODD. I fit the... majority of the symptoms? That's a bit of an understatement; my personality basically IS that.
See, I'm VERY argumentative. Of course, this is helpful, being Captain of the Debate team (/brag), but at home it can be awful. I just argue and argue with my parents until I get my way. I just see everything they do as stupid and unjust. I literally CAN'T drop an argument because I know that means they 'win'. Especially my dad because if I drop an argument or I leave he makes this face like.. haha. You know just. A smirk. Because he knows he's won. I also do the same thing with my debate coach, and I talk out at her all the time (because she had done some very... well. I thought they were awful things). I don't have this problem with teachers, unless they are mean or... talk down to me. Like I'm not an equal. I guess it's because I just have this thing where I think I know better than my parents/most people (BUT I DO.)
My parents also complain about me blaming people. Like. When I did something wrong I will say "Yeah I hit her BUT she hit me first" or "Yeah I forgot to do my homework BUT my teacher did not post it on blackboard".
... I also disregard my parent's rules. My parents told me I cannot take food to my room? Well what do they know? I take it up anyways. My parents told me I couldn't get pet rats? I bought them myself. I guess I just... follow my own rules. :/
I also cannot help it, but a lot of my friends get upset at me because I can't drop arguments with them.
The thing is, I'm really missing a huge part of ODD- the violent part/sexual promiscuity/drug abuse. I'm just not violent. Well, I am violent with my WORDS but uh. yeah. I'm also not very promiscuous (never even been on a date), and I am a teetotaler- TOTALLY against drugs/tobacco/alcohol. The only time I have ever been in trouble at school was insuboordinance in 9th grade. (Teacher was trying to make me organize my binder and I refused)
I'm also indecisive. The other day I was buying groceries and I couldn't decide what to get and I just began taking items and putting them back on shelves and then I started sobbing because I just COULD NOT DECIDE.
I'm also sort of... I don't know. Insecure yet confident? I'm always afraid people are talking about me behind my back but I'm like WOOO cheery around all the time and I'm a good leader (I HAVE to be leader. THINGS MUST BE DONE /MY/ WAY) but in stores I'm afraid to talk to clerks because I'm afraid they will be upset at me.
... I also have hygiene issues. I just... I can't explain. I forget? to bathe? I also hate showers and have to take baths. I sometimes go like 4-6 days because I simply keep FORGETTING.
Do I have ODD? something else? I just feel so lost because I have all these... I just know it's MORE than ADHD. Sometimes I'm like WOO happy (yeah like right now LOL) and other times I'm like well balls I've had the best day ever and I'm still upset. I've been asking for therapy for a long time but my parents say that it won't help me because they will just say I'm wrong and that will make me worse. I just wish I could go home without ARGUING all the time. I've resigned myself to sitting in my room.
I'm a good student (well sort of. I'm really forgetful and I am VERY disorganized)
Is there anything I can do? I e-mailed my guidance counselor at school but he never e-mailed me back and I'm so non-confrontational that I don't know what to do because while I can type all this out I CAN NEVER SAY IT TO SOMEONE IN REAL LIFE
... it's really frustrating.
sorry for like the longest post ever I just don't know what to do and I'm so worried about college and if I can't even do this stupid stuff how am I ever going to go to college or become a teacher? (Like I want to be)
I'm not really sure where to go and I was googling ODD and ADHD and came across this so uh. hi.
I've been diagnosed with ADHD and Dysgraphia since 6th grade. My little brother has it, as does my dad. I'm 17 years old, and I'm a senior in high school.
Recently, I've been researching college options and whatnot and difficulties I might have with ADHD in college and I came across ODD. I fit the... majority of the symptoms? That's a bit of an understatement; my personality basically IS that.
See, I'm VERY argumentative. Of course, this is helpful, being Captain of the Debate team (/brag), but at home it can be awful. I just argue and argue with my parents until I get my way. I just see everything they do as stupid and unjust. I literally CAN'T drop an argument because I know that means they 'win'. Especially my dad because if I drop an argument or I leave he makes this face like.. haha. You know just. A smirk. Because he knows he's won. I also do the same thing with my debate coach, and I talk out at her all the time (because she had done some very... well. I thought they were awful things). I don't have this problem with teachers, unless they are mean or... talk down to me. Like I'm not an equal. I guess it's because I just have this thing where I think I know better than my parents/most people (BUT I DO.)
My parents also complain about me blaming people. Like. When I did something wrong I will say "Yeah I hit her BUT she hit me first" or "Yeah I forgot to do my homework BUT my teacher did not post it on blackboard".
... I also disregard my parent's rules. My parents told me I cannot take food to my room? Well what do they know? I take it up anyways. My parents told me I couldn't get pet rats? I bought them myself. I guess I just... follow my own rules. :/
I also cannot help it, but a lot of my friends get upset at me because I can't drop arguments with them.
The thing is, I'm really missing a huge part of ODD- the violent part/sexual promiscuity/drug abuse. I'm just not violent. Well, I am violent with my WORDS but uh. yeah. I'm also not very promiscuous (never even been on a date), and I am a teetotaler- TOTALLY against drugs/tobacco/alcohol. The only time I have ever been in trouble at school was insuboordinance in 9th grade. (Teacher was trying to make me organize my binder and I refused)
I'm also indecisive. The other day I was buying groceries and I couldn't decide what to get and I just began taking items and putting them back on shelves and then I started sobbing because I just COULD NOT DECIDE.
I'm also sort of... I don't know. Insecure yet confident? I'm always afraid people are talking about me behind my back but I'm like WOOO cheery around all the time and I'm a good leader (I HAVE to be leader. THINGS MUST BE DONE /MY/ WAY) but in stores I'm afraid to talk to clerks because I'm afraid they will be upset at me.
... I also have hygiene issues. I just... I can't explain. I forget? to bathe? I also hate showers and have to take baths. I sometimes go like 4-6 days because I simply keep FORGETTING.
Do I have ODD? something else? I just feel so lost because I have all these... I just know it's MORE than ADHD. Sometimes I'm like WOO happy (yeah like right now LOL) and other times I'm like well balls I've had the best day ever and I'm still upset. I've been asking for therapy for a long time but my parents say that it won't help me because they will just say I'm wrong and that will make me worse. I just wish I could go home without ARGUING all the time. I've resigned myself to sitting in my room.
I'm a good student (well sort of. I'm really forgetful and I am VERY disorganized)
Is there anything I can do? I e-mailed my guidance counselor at school but he never e-mailed me back and I'm so non-confrontational that I don't know what to do because while I can type all this out I CAN NEVER SAY IT TO SOMEONE IN REAL LIFE
... it's really frustrating.
sorry for like the longest post ever I just don't know what to do and I'm so worried about college and if I can't even do this stupid stuff how am I ever going to go to college or become a teacher? (Like I want to be)