Matty's Mummy
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well I feel mixed feelings, I think I should feel giult and mayne I do I'm not sure, I know it's on my heart, but I cant give in to his abuse.
I'm done with it, I dont want it. I left his father so I dont have to live with abuse when he was 2 years old> i've a new family and none of my other kids abuse me nor woudl my partner ever a buse me. we have been together since my son was 3yrs old woudl you think growing up with my abuse in the home woudl help him? no it didnt' words that came from his mouth last week were straight from hsi fathers as well as some words to shock me.
he said to me "go suck a C**k" and "Your a BLEEP< BLEEP S**T" exact words hsi father used once, so I knew just where it came from.
I'm reall ydoe really over it, so he calls me up a week later (he didn't cal for my birthday which was great because I wasn't calling him for hsi the next day" however calls me 2 days later in a soft voice "mum.. " pause "mum how are you" well I just said 'cant talk by" and i hung up.
I know he will fall flat on his face and his father will lead him down a slippery slop with drinking... but I'm not going to be there. so that go me all worried at what point f ever woudl I talk to him again?
I dont want abuse and when I talk to him, regardless of all I have tried he sees nice, and support as weekness and I cant change it. I abused him back pretty bad for the first time ever and while I'm not proud, he heard me for the first time.
what is it when all a person responds to is the same agression they dish out.
he was pretty shocked at what he got back, I tol dhim some home truths and that he was a horrible child who we did all we coudl for and he chooses to be a horrible adult.... stuff like that.
so I'm Occupational Therapist (OT) giving in and not talkin gto him, family and friends can think what they like, but I'm so done with this ****. but I wonder he is in hospital and I know I cant go, he has to fix himself and do it on his own or with support he finds himself... but how long I wonder 3 year I'm thinking a min at the moment maybe 2, before I woudl ever talk to him. I know it cant be less than 2 not sure why it's just a figure I'd liek it to be 3 ha. does that sound terrible? we have gone a few months before with no contact but that wasn't becuase of a fight.
ok the other thing before I had for sleep at 2:30 am is how long have others left it? and did it help? do you wish you just never spoke to them again because they havne't changed?
oh he was drinking as well, but wasn't that drunk as he coudl call me back.. and called my mother, my sister, hsi sister and I guess ohters as well. oh hsi father...
I'm done with it, I dont want it. I left his father so I dont have to live with abuse when he was 2 years old> i've a new family and none of my other kids abuse me nor woudl my partner ever a buse me. we have been together since my son was 3yrs old woudl you think growing up with my abuse in the home woudl help him? no it didnt' words that came from his mouth last week were straight from hsi fathers as well as some words to shock me.
he said to me "go suck a C**k" and "Your a BLEEP< BLEEP S**T" exact words hsi father used once, so I knew just where it came from.
I'm reall ydoe really over it, so he calls me up a week later (he didn't cal for my birthday which was great because I wasn't calling him for hsi the next day" however calls me 2 days later in a soft voice "mum.. " pause "mum how are you" well I just said 'cant talk by" and i hung up.
I know he will fall flat on his face and his father will lead him down a slippery slop with drinking... but I'm not going to be there. so that go me all worried at what point f ever woudl I talk to him again?
I dont want abuse and when I talk to him, regardless of all I have tried he sees nice, and support as weekness and I cant change it. I abused him back pretty bad for the first time ever and while I'm not proud, he heard me for the first time.
what is it when all a person responds to is the same agression they dish out.
he was pretty shocked at what he got back, I tol dhim some home truths and that he was a horrible child who we did all we coudl for and he chooses to be a horrible adult.... stuff like that.
so I'm Occupational Therapist (OT) giving in and not talkin gto him, family and friends can think what they like, but I'm so done with this ****. but I wonder he is in hospital and I know I cant go, he has to fix himself and do it on his own or with support he finds himself... but how long I wonder 3 year I'm thinking a min at the moment maybe 2, before I woudl ever talk to him. I know it cant be less than 2 not sure why it's just a figure I'd liek it to be 3 ha. does that sound terrible? we have gone a few months before with no contact but that wasn't becuase of a fight.
ok the other thing before I had for sleep at 2:30 am is how long have others left it? and did it help? do you wish you just never spoke to them again because they havne't changed?
oh he was drinking as well, but wasn't that drunk as he coudl call me back.. and called my mother, my sister, hsi sister and I guess ohters as well. oh hsi father...