I am sick and run down, as I have been battling a nasty virus for the last month that I can't seem to get rid of. In between working and going home and feeling like death, I have been feeling depressed and out of sorts. I keep feeling like I just can't seem to win for losing, and the expression goes, because no matter how nice I am to people, I don't seem to be getting much in return. So a little of my religious back round is I am born again Christian. I have been taught all of my life that we are supposed to give out of the goodness of our own hearts, without expecting anything in return. I am naturally a very good, overly giving, too nice of a person, and the only things I ever expect to get in return are respect and common courtesy. Most of the time I get neither. I am talking about all types of relationships, including my kids, family members, friends, and relationships. I give and give and give, and they take and take and take, and I don't usually get a good response. I get taken advantage of. I get disrespected. I get people walking out of my life without explanation, because they don't think they owe me one. Have I been wrong all this time expecting anything? My religion tells me so. According to my bible, we are to be Christ like, and give regardless of what we get back. I keep getting disappointed when people don't treat me as kindly as I do them, and I am getting sick of it. You would think at my age, I would be getting tougher, getting used to it, and dealing with it better. I'm not. I just continue to hurt more and more each and every time I am let down. I tell myself to expect nothing, but still get disappointed. So I am seriously wondering, was I being too selfish? Should I really expect nothing, as the bible tells me so?