I am so sorry you find yourself in this position. Have you tried going to Nami? They may be able to give you some support that will make a difference. I suggest your youngest son if he is concerned go with you or depending on his age on his own. You are not responsible for either of your older sons conditions. I am not familiar with the effects of anasognosia so would not dream of advising you about your sons condition but suggest yo go to someone who can. At the very least you might not feel so isolated. Prayers to you and all your sons.