Thank you for the prayers and kind words. Things look very bleak. The ventilator saved my mom's life, but now they can't get her off it.The doctor doesn't know if she will live. I don't see how the damage can be undone. The lungs were damaged too greatly. Thanks everyone for being strong when I couldn't be strong for myself.
She squeezed the nurse's hand today, but is still barely clinging to life. I don't want to get my hopes up like last time. They are reducing the sedatives to help her wake up, but every time they do that she either goes into distress or it just doesn't work. I just know she is going to die. I don't say that to my dad.
Thanks everyone for your thoughtfulness. It really helps to have people around us either in person, on the phone, or internet. My dad is having an especially hard time today. He's bored and lonely. I think I might go to his house and decorate for autumn. Maybe it will give him something to do.
The whole world is in crisis and living day by day whether they acknowledge it or not. Nobody knows what the next day will bring. I think this is the hardest thing in the whole world to live floating in the air not knowing what will be.
Your Mom may not have been able to handle waking up because she wasn't ready. Yet. She may be yet. We are all of us praying. For her nad for your family.
My mom died Sunday. The kind words and prayers from people like all of you have made it easier. My dad has been inconsolable. I am doing OK now because I had already grieved her when all this first happened. When they said ventilator and Covid in the same sentence, I knew she didn't have a chance. I'm eating and sleeping now.