My son is dead.
- Thread starter blackgnat
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Concerned Mom & Dad
New Member
I am so sorry for what you have been through with your son and what you are going through now.
Marcie Mac
Just Plain Ole Tired
Am so sorry for your loss. Cyber hugs
Marcie
Marcie
Estherfromjerusalem
Well-Known Member
I am so sorry, Blackgnat.
Ironbutterfly
If focused on a single leaf you won't see the tree
I'm so sorry, so many thoughts and feelings your family must be feeling. Prayers for you all to get through the loss of your son
MommaMella
New Member
I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers.
DazedandConfused
Well-Known Member
I'm so sorry....*gentle, compassionate hug*
OMG I am so terribly sorry. . My heart breaks for you and your family.
BusynMember
Well-Known Member
I don't think we will see her again. Her reason for being here is gone. I am so sad for her. My heart hurts. She still has my daily prayers
Childofmine
one day at a time
BG, I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your precious son. Please know we are here whenever and for whatever you need. I hate to hear this so very much. We care.
blackgnat
Active Member
My dear friends, thank you all so much for your support and sympathy. You have never failed to understand and help me and I could never have survived this horrendous journey without you all. The site and all its warriors was my inspiration to keep going, knowing that there were so many others walking this surreal and painful path.
Right now, I think I am on auto pilot. I'm still on "vacation" here in my home country (England) and have booked a flight today to Vegas for Thursday, where I will meet my ex and my younger son. We will drive to San Diego and claim Aaron's body.
The idea that we have to make decisions about his cremation,etc, is abhorrent to me. I know that the worst part will be going to the morgue a d seeing him dead. My beautiful lost boy.
But I am also not trying to Canonise him. I loved him so much, but he caused me unrelenting pain and was continuing to spiral down so fast that I felt his death was inevitable. I think I have been grieving this loss for a while now. Unless I'm in a state of disbelief?
I guess I don't know what to think. I feel like I will not be able to feel joy for a long time.
However this works, I must thank you all again. Prayers and love to all who are on this most agonizing and mystifying of journeys.
Rest In Peace, Aaron Thomas, in the peace that eluded you in life.
Much love to you all,
Annemarie
Right now, I think I am on auto pilot. I'm still on "vacation" here in my home country (England) and have booked a flight today to Vegas for Thursday, where I will meet my ex and my younger son. We will drive to San Diego and claim Aaron's body.
The idea that we have to make decisions about his cremation,etc, is abhorrent to me. I know that the worst part will be going to the morgue a d seeing him dead. My beautiful lost boy.
But I am also not trying to Canonise him. I loved him so much, but he caused me unrelenting pain and was continuing to spiral down so fast that I felt his death was inevitable. I think I have been grieving this loss for a while now. Unless I'm in a state of disbelief?
I guess I don't know what to think. I feel like I will not be able to feel joy for a long time.
However this works, I must thank you all again. Prayers and love to all who are on this most agonizing and mystifying of journeys.
Rest In Peace, Aaron Thomas, in the peace that eluded you in life.
Much love to you all,
Annemarie
