DDD
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My life is not what I envisioned or even similar to anyone else's life that is a year and a few months short of 70, for goodness sake. I have survived with some semblance of sanity by "rolling with the blows" and adapting to the various situations. You all are the only ones who actually hear about the strange pattern of my life...it's not like "normals" would understand at all. I don't understand it myself!
I'm at work this morning and rethinking last night. Thought I'd share what I was doing from 12:30 to 3:30 this morning. easy child/difficult child proudly went for five days with no booze but "felt the need" last night. He had me drop him off at his favorite watering hole about 9:30. At 12:30 he called and said "Time to pick me up, Mama." The bars don't close until 2 so I was a bit surprised. Thirty or forty of his friends were heading out to a party and he didn't want to be around the drugs. Wow.
Well he was not "gone" but he was buzzed enough he needed company
at home. I drove thru a fast food place and got him a supersized meal
and soft drink hoping that would help him sleep. I checked to make sure he had enough cigarettes so he wouldn't wake me up to drive him to the store. I had our bedroom door closed so the dog wouldn't become an issue. I turned off the ringer on the phone so nobody would call.
Check. Check. Check. He took his medication and we said goodnight by
1:00. Yeah, Mama.
At 1:30 he comes in my room and says "you've got to come to my room for just five minutes" "I promise you can come back to your room in five
minutes if you want to, Mama."
I get to his room, sit in the chair and he gives me a BIG smile. Then, he
starts a CD that has been "lost" for years. He burned it for me as a birthday present for my 65th birthday. I LOVE it! I just couldn't help myself. I was out of my chair and dancing before the first lyric started.
easy child/difficult child and I laughed and danced and sang and watched sports until around three. We had a ball.
husband and the dog soundly slept. My "son" said "Mama, I love you more than anything in the world..plus..you're more D'd fun than anybody I know." I left his room and hit the hay at 3:30. Sometimes my life is just too darn weird. Sometimes easy child/difficult child touches my heart and I remember why I've always loved the brat! DDD
I'm at work this morning and rethinking last night. Thought I'd share what I was doing from 12:30 to 3:30 this morning. easy child/difficult child proudly went for five days with no booze but "felt the need" last night. He had me drop him off at his favorite watering hole about 9:30. At 12:30 he called and said "Time to pick me up, Mama." The bars don't close until 2 so I was a bit surprised. Thirty or forty of his friends were heading out to a party and he didn't want to be around the drugs. Wow.
Well he was not "gone" but he was buzzed enough he needed company
at home. I drove thru a fast food place and got him a supersized meal
and soft drink hoping that would help him sleep. I checked to make sure he had enough cigarettes so he wouldn't wake me up to drive him to the store. I had our bedroom door closed so the dog wouldn't become an issue. I turned off the ringer on the phone so nobody would call.
Check. Check. Check. He took his medication and we said goodnight by
1:00. Yeah, Mama.
At 1:30 he comes in my room and says "you've got to come to my room for just five minutes" "I promise you can come back to your room in five
minutes if you want to, Mama."
I get to his room, sit in the chair and he gives me a BIG smile. Then, he
starts a CD that has been "lost" for years. He burned it for me as a birthday present for my 65th birthday. I LOVE it! I just couldn't help myself. I was out of my chair and dancing before the first lyric started.
easy child/difficult child and I laughed and danced and sang and watched sports until around three. We had a ball.
husband and the dog soundly slept. My "son" said "Mama, I love you more than anything in the world..plus..you're more D'd fun than anybody I know." I left his room and hit the hay at 3:30. Sometimes my life is just too darn weird. Sometimes easy child/difficult child touches my heart and I remember why I've always loved the brat! DDD