I want to thank everyone for their prayers and support.
Child, I have lived with uncertainty, fear, concern, and out and out anger towards and about D C for many years. It never gets easier it just becomes a dull throb. I do get on with my day. I really have no choice. It is not in my character to wallow. When I falter, I repeat the serenity prayer while I move through the day. I do my best to remember that the worst does not happen at least 98% of the time. I draw on my faith and give it to G-d. When all else fails......wine not much just enough to take the edge off.