This is so true. You have never turned your back on your son TL. Your relationship with him from what I know of you has always been whole. You have given him your whole self. That is all anybody can do. We cannot promise anybody else. Your son has to work to repair that relationship with his sister, if it is important to him. But at the same time there is work that your daughter can do, or put a better way, life will work on her. Life can break us down. Break down our sense that we are together or that we know anything or even, if we are whole. Life breaks us. Maybe someday she will experience something in her life that makes her understand son's experience and that allows her to open to him, and step outside of the limits of their current relationship. Your son to me sounds like a very sensitive and good person at heart. And I am impressed at how much he has stayed in the game, and kept trying for himself. He touches my heart and he has my admiration. I am hopeful that their relationship can heal. But in the heart's time. I would feel bad too.