Copa, For me those feelings did fade. I used to lash right back out, let her see I was angry and hurt. Not anymore. Not sure why. Perhaps because of her diagnosis, she won't take it the way it is intended. Her perception of people and their words and motives are very skewed. So lashing out makes it worse. And it provokes her to continue, which gets nowhere. Perhaps it is because I know that when she is high, nothing I say gets through. And in her paranoia it just make her more vindictive and abusive, and I can't compete. Or perhaps I am just tired. I see it is pointless, gets nowhere. It doesn't hurt her feelings or make her feel remorse. It just makes her angrier and I get more hurt. I used to get very angry and lash back out hen she was ugly. Now I hang up the phone, turn it off, walk away. That bothers her more than arguing or trying to reason with her.