MommaB-I'm learning to keep things to myself and not share them unless I'm sharing with people who I know love me and know I was a good mom to Josh.
I truly hope you will check out the church near you. And if it's not a good fit, keep trying. As a pastor's wife and Christian, I have learned that there some awesome, wise, caring people out there, and then there are the others. Find a church that loves Jesus and will, in turn, love on you.