Great about the sponsor and meeting.
I understand what you are saying about the physical part of no deterrent.
What about all of the other negative effects---the other side of the coin when it comes to addiction. Are those a deterrent?
I hope you can continue on this journey and get your life back.
When I look at my son, who is addicted to drugs, I see a person who has the physical addiction and the mental addiction as well, which brings with it lack of responsibility, immaturity, bad decision-making, victim behavior, no forward progress in his life, lack of resources, like money, a home, food, shelter, education, relationships, etc.
His drug is #1. He has slowly alienated every single person who loves him with his out of control behavior.
My ex-husband was a very high functioning alcoholic, had an executive position, etc. But even though his life was not the dramatic life my son now leads, my ex-husband was fearful, anxious, judgmental, lied when the truth was just as good, insecure. I could go on and on. He was far from being a whole person. I believe he hated himself for the life he lived.
Our relationship was badly damaged by his addiction. I tried really really hard to stick with him and be a good partner, but there were three entities in the relationship: him, me and alcohol. He had one face on to the public and another face on to me.
I stuck with him for 10 years (we were married 29 years and together 33 years) as his addiction progressed. As you know, the disease is progressive. It only gets worse.
My friends said I "danced as fast as I could" to make him happy. It didn't work because he was deeply unhappy inside himself. One person can't make another person happy.
Your situation could be different, but I bet it's not that different.
I don't know about your husband, but I want to live with and be with a person who is as whole as possible. One person just can't carry another on his/her back and make it work well.
Please take what you like here, and leave the rest. You are the only person who can decide what you will do.
My prayers are with you today.