Happy Thanksgiving?!?

[Nomad]

I did not see him again. If I think at all deeply about my situation, my heart breaks.

Im so sorry.

 

[Scout999]

He is also blocking me on his phone. This irritates me. In his mind I deserve being cut off, punished. Tha annoys me.

Hi Copa,
You mention so many things that my son is doing. He blocks us or hangs up on us. I also believe it's punishment. My son is paranoid and delusional too. He thinks someone is tracking his phone and blocking his calls. This Thanksgiving, he visited when only I was home and started taking pictures off the wall. The were my husband framed photos of his great grandfather. My son didn't want dead people on the wall that he didn't know. I was upset and as he went toward the pictures, he grabbed one to break it over his knee. I reached for the pictures and toucher him. Then he put his hands on me and pushed me back. I was really upset and dialed 911, but I hung up. I knew that the police would follow up and I didn't know what my son would do because he scared me. Then I asked him to leave and would no longer talk to him. He kept rationalizing his behavior without apologizing. Flight or fight. I choose flight consistently. Anyway, the police did follow up and I told them it as a mistake as my son did eventually leave. I never thought I would have the guts to dial 911 but I was frightened and angry enough to do it. My son is unrecognizable from who he used to be. I never thought he would do that.

Others have mentioned psychotic episodes as the issue. Sometimes I think he is manic. When I won't give him what he wants (usually money), he'll either block me or tell me he is going to harm himself. Actually, he says the horrific way he will harm himself. I tell him to call 988 as I don't know where he is so can't have police do a welfare check. Anyway, I recognize some of my own experiences in your post. Also, your reaction on how long it took to become calm again. Thanks for sharing. Sometimes my emotions are off the wall when I interact with him.

 

[Copabanana]

Flight or fight. I choose flight consistently

I chose flight too. I still do. But my turning point when the flight went so far as "dissociating." I became so fearful I blacked out and lost consciousness. I won't go into detail but I got so scared of where I could go, I changed.

My son is unrecognizable from who he used to be. I never thought he would do that.

This is our story. My son is unrecognizable. We were so very close. He was the sweetest, kindest child and adolescent.

The thing is this: They are not those boys anymore. And we are not moms of boys, but of men. We have to allow ourselves, our feelings, our being to be part of the equation, part of the picture. Reality is you're being terrorized. I know it's unbearable to feel that, to think that, but it is real.

We do not help our adult children by denying reality. How can they accept their reality of we deny its effects on us?

I am so very sorry you had to go through something like I did.

Manic episodes can and do involve psychosis. There is a form of Bipolar Disorder that is called Bipolar I, here in the States. It can involve psychosis, that looks very like schizophrenia. You can learn about it by googling Bipolar I in the DSM.