Well it goes and so it goes. AS is staying close to home and if he isn’t here he is spending time with his new found girlfriend. Pardon me if I don’t get too close or excited about the girl. He has had 5 GFs in the past 2 years. He goes to school and is late at times. We have covered the late issues last week by calling in and we have said we will not do it this week. He does attend and is on time the rest of the day. I do not enjoy being around my son as it triggers too much PTSD and I struggle with this. I know it is because we are in a holding pattern ....again waiting for Rehab bed. He had his on site assessment this week and the drive to and from was a challenge. More so the drive there than back. This is to be expected, the fear of the unknown, the anticipation and the anxiety. He is remaining relatively clean has admitted he has smoked pot and drank on the weekends. Clearly why he likes to spend time at the girlfriends house. We are out of drug testing kits and are on back order for them....clearly a product in high demand. Although new GFs mother is a police officer she appears to be very liberal with her daughter and allows her underage kids to drink and smoke pot. This is so annoying to me. This is also a mother of who took her not quit 17 year old daughter to see our son in Jail, nice. And they had only been dating for a few weeks! I am frustrated that son does not take accountability for his belongings. Does not clean his room and bathroom as requested. I am so tired of this battle. I get that these are normal teen boy issues and I know they are compounded here by my sons drug issues. Still frustrating all the same. He can’t simply have a free reign, scraping by doing less than the bare minimum....yet here we are. We are going away for 10 days to Mexico. I can’t wait. We are so needing this break. We have had to hire a minder for son and I also find this annoying. At his age I was independent on my own and in my second year of nursing school. Husband was in Engineering College while living at home and working by this age. I simply want this time to go like a sling shot and I want to wake up with son in rehab and see some progress. I can’t change the limbo but oh how I wish I could.