I just can't see it. Every thread of my being says fix this! I grew up with family values that were family first family always. difficult child is too old to behaving this way but she is mentally not there. Today only reinforces this for me. Is this what I teach my grandkids? Family only up to the point then you are on your own. I look at this as one should look at a child with a disability. Do you kick them to the curb for this or do you accept the disability and move on. Yes I get the point that I am susposed to make them accept their lives and I deserve mine but I can't help but think it sounds selfish. She is sick I don't know what label to give her malady but no mother of two does what she did today with a right mind. I know the courts will not get her the help she needs. Blaw blaw blaw words words words, there is no rational answer and no answer I want to hear. I have read post after post and I am no closer to understanding this. The life I wanted is over. I now have to settle for what I have. I cannot change that I have two kids who will need the next 12 years of our lives.